Today I kept my word!

Yesterday I 'gave my word' (to myself) that I would allow myself time and space to think about my aims for 2007.

I woke up at 11 (I hate sleeping late) and I was EXHAUSTED. The past weeks and months have taken a toll and Christmas and the 'festivities' have, well and truly, finished me off. My day was filled with activity ..... cleaning, shopping, cooking, preparing for work in the morning, catching up with old friends, deep conversations whilst 'relaxing' in Starbucks, supportive phonecalls to mum and sister ..... the day was filled to bursting.

BUT I kept my word ..... I took myself into the bedroom with one intention only ..... to give myself space to think.

I lay on the bed in the darkness and noticed my how fast my heart was racing and I tried to calm it by breathing slowly ..... In on the count of five, out on the count of five ..... I noticed the pressure across my forehead and the burning tiredness in my eyes ...... I noticed how my hips and thighs spread across the bed, wider than they were before ..... I noticed how my stomach churned ..... My mind hopped and jumped from things that 'I should be doing'

Ten minutes later I had to DO something ..... I could only relax for 10 measly minutes!
I was shocked at just how stressed and unfit I was feeling ..... and even more shocked that it was only when I stopped that I noticed ..... I stayed in the bedroom and wrote my aims .....

For the next month .....

I give my word that I will give myself space to relax for 30 minutes every day.
I give my word that I will eat only when I am hungry.
I give my word that I will choose food that will help me to become healthy.
I give my word that I will break my addiction to caffine.
I give my word that I will exercise for at least one hour every week.
I give my word that I will see a doctor.
I give my word that I will see a dentist.
I give my word that I will review the above in one month.

I give my word that I will show my love more often.

I actually felt fear at the thought of giving my word to do the following :-

Within four months .....

I give my word that I will earn money by organising a social event.

Within one year .....

I give my word that I will be earning a regular income by organising social events.

So there you have it, I have given my word ..... So how much is it worth?

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Sparky x