I just lost my blog!!! ..... Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..... What is 'Tag j is not allowed in Tag em' supposed to mean? What is a Tag anyway?

I will not be beaten ..... Here we go again .....

If someone calls you a sexual Tyrannasaurus do they mean you're old? ..... Just a though ;)

Yes, the roller coaster is on the up and it is all because of blogging ..... The other night I was looking for hot spoons with which to pluck out my eyeballs ..... Today I have an interest, I have a purpose in life ..... I am a blogger!!!

(Why the hot spoons? ..... What else do you use when you find you have backed yourself into a corner with no way out? ..... It's obvious isn't it!)

I didn't get to bed until three this morning it was blog, blog, blog all night ..... Have you read these things?Some of them are absolutely fascinating.

Ohhhhhh and isn't it great when someone makes a comment on yours ...... hmmmmm ..... I feel a new addiction coming on :-/

However, blogging is not without it's dilemas ..... Being the honest person that I am (Too honest for my own good at times) I am wondering just how far I am going to go with this ..... I am currently holding back the need to vomit my personal woes over the world and large ..... One good barf and you could be covered in the carroty details of my love life ..... Yuk! ..... It's a dilema indeed ..... I will give it long and serious thought. :|

This mid life crisis lark is a bugger. Do you know what I have just realised? ..... I am going to die :??:..... It's OK, I don't mean right now, but someday I am going to die .....
I know I am a bit late in realising this (But better late than never I suppose ..... It would have been a disaster if I found myself dead without prior warning) :>

Anyway, here is my problem ..... After realising that I am going to die, it didn't take too long for me to work out that I had a limited time to live ..... Seriously scary!!!

Now, that wouldn't be too bad if I was happy and content with my life ..... I would just go on living until I stopped. But I am not happy with any aspect of my life at all ...... OK, I probably look and feel better than at any other time in my life ..... and yes, I have more energy, enthusiasm and confidence ...... BUT ..... I am not happy ......

I have spent the past five years avoiding this simple fact (quite successfully I might add) but my strategies are no longer working ..... (I went clubbing the other night and took a book in case I got bored ..... definitely a bad sign)

So that leaves me with the BIG QUESTION ..... What do I want to do with the rest of my life and what am I prepared to do to achieve it?

Right, that's enough navel gazing for one night, I am off to bed.

Keep safe,

Sparky x